People problems

Hello followers. It is 7:17 a.m. I have been up since 4:45 a.m. I went to bed at a semi early time last night, so I thought I would just stay up and get some stuff done. One of those things to get done is to write another blog. So here it is.

First, let me prove to you how badly I miss my son when he is not with me. I stood outside my back door just now to watch his school bus go by. I do not know if he saw me, but I was watching. I miss that little man. Yes, its true that when I only have one kid, I seem to be calmer and such, but I still miss him. Julian is one of a kind and if you met  him, you would agree. He has charm coming out of his butt and it is impossible for anyone not to love that kid. He is going to do wonderful things in life I just know it.

It seems as though fall is here in full swing. The seasons are so strange and they get stranger every year. I love fall though, so I am happy to see it. I love fall smells, halloween, thanksgiving, hayrides, and the fact I can hide my scary body in big sweatshirts! Do not expect to see me in anything but jeans and sweatshirts this fall/winter.

I have been forcing myself to go out in public. Mostly for my kids and friends sake though. I need a treadmill or an elipitcal. If you or anyone you know has one that they do not want, send it my way. Until I get one of those, I will be not so happy about going out. Those two pieces of eqiupment are the only way I like to exercise.

Big Brother is coming to end next week. I am sad, but there are other things on tv to look forward to. Grey's Anatomy, Survivor, Amazing Race, and Top Chef which is currently on. I love that show. This season's cast is amazing and they are cooking some stuff I have never heard of.  Other things to look forward to in my life are the Deadliest Catch forum my mom and I are going to. It is in York and it will feature the manly men from my favorite ship, the Time Bandit. Also, my mom got tickets for the Wizard of Oz play in Hershey. We are taking Julian and I hope he loves it. ( April, remind me to remind you of all this again.)

Some things I am not looking forward to are Christmas. I love Christmas. I love to decorate and make cookies. Being that my mom went crazy last year and bought me enough ornaments to start my own Christmas store, decorating is easy. What isn't easy is buying gifts for one kid. Now I have two to buy for. Granted, Sadie will not need much of anything being that she will be six months old, but still. This is why I love layway. I plan on starting next week. Sadly, the one store that still offers layaway is Kmart. I say sadly because at Kmart your choices are limited. So if anyone is interested, I would like to start a petition for Walmart and Target. Walmart used to have layaway. I think they stopped two years ago. I am not sure if Target ever offered it, but they really should. Just because I love that store. I might do Christmas a little different this year. Julian really does not need anymore toys. He is 6 and while he still likes his superhero's and such, I feel like he has enough. I will get him a bunch of Pokemon cards of course. I would love to get him the entire Harry Potter book series as well. But really, those things and some clothes will be about it for him. Sadie will get some baby development toys and clothes, but that is all. I wish I could buy all my loved ones gifts. I love giving people gifts and it pains me when I am out and see something I know someone would love and I cannot get it for them. Please do not take my lack of gift giving to heart. Trust me when I tell you that if I could, I would be giving you gifts everyday of the year.

What do I want for Christmas? I want to get drunk one night and have someone watch my kids that night and the next day. ( Yes, I understand how ridiculous this request sounds. I DONT CARE!) I want a job and I want Beatles Rockband. The first two things I see happening. The Beatles Rockband costs like 400 dollars I think, so yeah, no. Oh, and that treadmill I talked about earlier. I want snow on Christmas too. When was the last time that actually happened?

Sadie is two months old now! She seems to have more good days than bad I guess. When I am calm, she of course is calm too. So I need to learn to remain calm, cool, and collected when I have two kids at my feet. I wonder how I make ends meet? ( Five points and a home cooked meal to anyone who names the song I just quoted. April, you are not allowed to answer because I know this is your favorite.)

That's all for now. The washing machine if ready for another load. I am ready for a shower.